Putting up my christmas tree

And despite the pile of unwrapped gifts on the floor, the crackling fire, and the christmas music... I feel so.... heartbroken.

Not home sick. Not anything I can actually relate to or put a finger on.

I just can't shake this sadness that's been casting shadows over my head for the past few months.

I just can't stop thinking about a line from my only favorite chic flick, You've Got Mail... When Frank asks Kathleen "What about you? Is there someone else?" She responds, "No. No, but... but there's the dream of someone else"